There was always a void, an empty hole, a missing link between my body and my very own spirit. On several occasions the search took me to undefined crossroads and to confusing intersections that I couldn’t logically explain. So at times, I would put away the books for a while and return to them determined to start the process all over again.
During the past couple of years the focus was gradually changing. I was not reading as many religious books as I did before. I simply concentrated on reading the New Testament in the bible and one or two selected books I favored. But a new development was also taking root.
I began to meditate more, to pray more and spend more of my time in developing a one on one relationship with God. As time went on, I started saying less and listening more. I was getting information instead of putting out information; the prayer pattern reversed because my silence was sowing more spiritual seeds and I began reaping larger spiritual harvests.
The focus did not change accidentally. No, there was a larger force pushing me in this new direction. The logic was simple; if I can get closer to my inner being, a being that is always with me, and one that was given to me by God Himself then the chances of knowing and satisfying the one that created me was greater.
Already, there existed a very close relationship between God and my inner being; they are both spiritual beings. Therefore, it would be easier for me to isolate my search within my own being than to reach out hoping to touch the rainbow that I can’t reach. Is this the reason why He made us with two distinct identities, one spiritual and the other physical?
Once I realized that there is an in-built oneness between my spirit and God, and he has an unconditional love and a permanent relationship for His children, it did not take long for me to detour my urge and strive to become a better human being.
I often wondered if God didn’t purposely made us individually in His image and likeness, so it would become easier to know Him through the process of knowing ourselves than blindly making the mistake of finding Him elsewhere.
Excerpts from - I and ME, the Two of us, from the book, "The Forgotten Heroes" by John T. Rodriguez
During the past couple of years the focus was gradually changing. I was not reading as many religious books as I did before. I simply concentrated on reading the New Testament in the bible and one or two selected books I favored. But a new development was also taking root.
I began to meditate more, to pray more and spend more of my time in developing a one on one relationship with God. As time went on, I started saying less and listening more. I was getting information instead of putting out information; the prayer pattern reversed because my silence was sowing more spiritual seeds and I began reaping larger spiritual harvests.
The focus did not change accidentally. No, there was a larger force pushing me in this new direction. The logic was simple; if I can get closer to my inner being, a being that is always with me, and one that was given to me by God Himself then the chances of knowing and satisfying the one that created me was greater.
Already, there existed a very close relationship between God and my inner being; they are both spiritual beings. Therefore, it would be easier for me to isolate my search within my own being than to reach out hoping to touch the rainbow that I can’t reach. Is this the reason why He made us with two distinct identities, one spiritual and the other physical?
Once I realized that there is an in-built oneness between my spirit and God, and he has an unconditional love and a permanent relationship for His children, it did not take long for me to detour my urge and strive to become a better human being.
I often wondered if God didn’t purposely made us individually in His image and likeness, so it would become easier to know Him through the process of knowing ourselves than blindly making the mistake of finding Him elsewhere.
Excerpts from - I and ME, the Two of us, from the book, "The Forgotten Heroes" by John T. Rodriguez
No comments:
Post a Comment